cause life's too short too hate yourself ...

Jan 27, 2010

I've always been a girl who's comfortable in her own skin.
I accept who I am, try to be a good person, acknowledge my shortcomings and try to grow and make myself a better person, and love the Siovhan I am. I've always been fine with my intelligence, my sense of humor, my wit and many other facets of my personality.

But, I have my insecure moments.
{Sometimes many more than I'd wish.}
The times when my hair won't do what I want it to, when I feel/look fat, when I have a big fat zit, when my jeans look awkward -- the times I just have a hard time being me.

Tonight I had an insecure moment.
Then I had a mini breakthrough.

See, the other day I took a bunch of silly photos so I could change my Facebook pic (finally).
This is the one I picked.
(grainy effect on Picnik--I love you.)

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At one point tonight I looked at it and thought: 'Wow. My skin is really pasty." And then I thought: 'And it looks GREAT with my hair. I love that it's all light and creamy and un-fake.'
And as I looked through a couple more pictures from the same "shoot" I thought, "I like the way I look in a lot of these."

It may not be much -- but it's something. 

And yes, I know I have a duck face. And no I'm not giving it up just yet. And yes, that's my final answer.
And no, this is not some "sneaky" way for to ask you all to validate my looks -- it's a way for ME to validate that I like the way I am (even if just a little).

xoxo.

5 comments:

  1. Well maybe you aren't trying to get us to say nice things to you but I think you're gorgeous lady. So there.

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  2. I love the moments when you're just like, yes, I am okay with myself. And I'm hot. They're the best.

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  3. your duck face is SUPER CUTE! don't you ever give it up. i'm not giving mine up either...well not all the way.

    i get super insecure some days (mostlythe days that have that pesky little guest called PMS visiting). i hate it but then i get those days where i look at myself and i am completely content.

    keep on loving yourself siovhan. you're beautiful!

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